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And so and now Somena / Happy Halloween Location: 15:30-20:24, locked outta my #$#$@#$! apartment Mood: just plain irritated Music: see below  Above is a pic from a Halloween party I went to with Cain last Wednesday. Had to carry him home. So he had a great time. ---------- I dunno about you, but when I like a song, I listen to it a million times. Then, whenever I hear that song again, I think about that period in my life. I listened to The National singing, And so and now I'm sorry I missed you - I had a secret meeting in the basement of my brain all the time during the fall of last year. I remember I kept thinking of No 6. I almost never think of her any more. Weird how that works. Do yourself a favor and pick up that song - non-iPod users, click here. I met my very good friend Somena a year ago on Halloween. She was a librarian. Who says you can't have meaningful relationships from people you meet in bars? She liked to listen to Secret Meeting and pretend she was a spy. I'd never tell her but, late at night, on those long walks home, I do the same thing. Like I said, Venn Diagrams... Tags:
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Tuesday, October 30, 2007 | |
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Venn Diagrams Location: 16:45 yest, the 66th St. Post Office, waiting Mood: grateful Music: Sleepless long nights That was what my youth was for With nods to Sabatoa, I was talking to GES this past Sunday about Venn Diagrams. I told her that people walk around the world like 3D Venn Diagrams: we're all in our own little worlds. Strangers, friends, family, lovers, acquaintances - all, for better or for worse, enter into your little world, do their little bit, and then leave. Some people stay, some go. Sometimes they do something nice. Sometimes they rob you blind and leave you wondering if there's someplace you could sell a kidney and how much you could get for it. And sometimes they write you tell you everythings gonna be alright. Thank you muchly for that last one. Now...does anyone know the going rate on a kidney? ---------- Here's Fiest again (with members of the National, more on that tomorrow), playing a guitar and reminding me of those teenage hopes. Tags:
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Monday, October 29, 2007 | |
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No Chance Location: 20:15 yest, asking someone in church to pray for me Mood: resigned Music: Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that  I'm at my parents and my father's playing a sad song on the harmonica. He's never had a lesson in the piano or the harmonica in his life. But he can sit down in front of either and just break your heart. ---------- I went with Cain, Paul, and Paul's roomie to a costume party on Saturday. I was gonna go as Kato, but I couldn't find a hat. Him: Just wear what you wore last year. Me: What if I run into someone from last year? Him: (exasperated) Dude, it's a totally different party, there's no chance of you running into someone from last year.I ran into two people from last year. How embarrassing. Oh...like I really care. ---------- Like last Sunday, I woke up just in time to meet the pretty green-eyed schoolteacher (GES) for brunch. We walked all over the UWS again, to the East Side, then back and finished up with some sodas in a Columbia cafe - five hours. We actually saw two weddings in Central park - one was of a Chinese couple and I said gong xi (congrats) to them. The bride smiled at me. The weather was just as I like it: cold, clear and crisp. Her: Man, we walked so much, I'm going to sleep so well tonight. Me: Lucky you. Her: (puzzled) You won't?Me: (shaking head) I never do. Labels: Central Park, dad, dating, Halloween, New York City, NYC Subscribe!Permanent Link :: 0 comments ::
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Friday, October 26, 2007 | |
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Regular Job Location: 19:46, having diet ice cream@79th & Amsterdam Mood: heartbroken Music: I got every ingredient, all I need is the courage  ...ain't gon' follow no footsteps I'm making my own... I think you read me because you find my life interesting. Without a hint of arrogance or pride, I can tell you I find my life interesting. Every time I write something, I think, man, no one's gonna believe this. But I write about what happens. And I know why these things - good (dates, tv shows, random meetings, free trips to Europe) and bad (dates, car accidents, insomnia, robberies), keep happening. Because I keep trying. I keep pushing. I keep thinking I'm someone. It is better to try and fail greatly then never try at all. And I fail all the time. Health, wealth, relationship. Every one of them is a failure - I got my arm torn out trying to fight; I got robbed of all the money I've made in 34 years; and the last one? You know... And stupidly, I keep trying. Because I asked for all this. Y'ever listen to 8 Mile by Eminem? There're these lines that go: don't got enough pep The pressure's too much man, I'm just tryin to do what's best And I try, sit alone and I cry Yo I won't tell no lie, not a moment goes by That I don't pray to the sky, please I'm beggin you God Please don't let me pigeon holed in no regular job When I was a kid, I told God I never wanted a regular life. And it's like He laughed and said, You got it, kid - but everything's got a price. Sometimes I think I should have just married No 3 and worked in that law firm and had my 2.5 kids by now. Bought myself a red Porsche. When I started to find out about everything, that's one of the first things I thought of (the life, not the Porsche). I'm a man, I'ma make a new plan Time for me to just stand up, and travel new lands Time for me to just take matters in my own hands Once I'm over these tracks, man I'ma never look back The thing that...that just about broke me, was when I had to tell my parents. My mom worries so. And my father? I think I'm like every son, I just want him to be proud of me. But he told me to keep daring greatly. Cause he did. It's what we do, he said, you have to keep trying. I would only be disappointed in you if you stopped trying. I nodded and stammered in my crappy, crappy, Chinese, I will. Tags:
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Thursday, October 25, 2007 | |
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I don't see why Location: 20:00 yest, on 32d btw 8th and 9th Mood: completely sotted Music: feeling lonely I had a life to give many dreams to live  Well, I suppose I should tell you what happened now that things have settled a bit. Someone stole every penny I ever made. Six figures. Gone. I have 11.62 to my fine name. But I think I'll be ok. I'll survive. It's what I do. ------------ I was thinking about the curly-haired girl recently. I haven't seen her in a month or so and I don't think I will. But I thought about a conversation we had the last time I saw her. Her: So I don't see why you're still single. Me: I'm really good at hiding the crazy until about the third or fourth date. Her: Ah, (slowly nodding) good to know...It all seems so unreal. Unfortunately, it's all true. Subscribe!Permanent Link :: 3 comments ::
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Wednesday, October 24, 2007 | |
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Boys do make passes Location: 19:30 yest, driving through Central Park Mood: sad Music: I love the way you say, good morning With nods The Laura (whoa, twice in three days), who introduced me to the singer above, I submit that Dorothy Parker was wrong. I have a new female roommate - like the last two, she's stunning. Also like the other two, she's off limits to me. Mainly because I'm not a creep. However, she hung out with me, Paul and Cain the other night: Her: Really? No way... Me: It's true. (turning to Paul and Cain) What do you guys think? Paul: Glasses, definitely.Cain: Glasses. Me: (turning back to her) See. We love that. Men also love them because chicks can toss them off all sexy-like. You just can't do that with contacts. I mean you could...but that'd just be weird.Tags:
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007 | |
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Hug or Handshake? Location: 20:00 yest., on the 7 train, coming home Mood: concerned Music: rescue me lemme have a good time  Me: Hi there. (pause) Ah, the awkward, Hug or handshake? Her: (smiling) I'll give you the hug. Because of the craziness of various things in my personal/business life, I've not been dating at all. But, as I said yesterday, on Sunday I met up with a pretty green-eyed school teacher for a cup of coffee and we had the best time - the weather was killer and we just walked about the neighborhood. It was probably the most relaxed I'd been in while. For a few hours at least, I forgot about my worries. I'm supposed to see her again this week. It's funny, even in my darkest hours, I can still find ways to distract myself with utter randomness. Case in point, I was queuing in the bank the other day: Female Teller 1: (handing me receipt) Is there anything else? Me: Yeah, (pointing to Female Teller 2) What's her name? Both: Lisa Me: (turning to Female Teller 2) Hello, Lisa. All three of us laughed and then I politely excused myself. The rest of the week sucked but I live for the weekend and these random bits of entertainment. That and the blue sky, of course. Tags:
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Monday, October 22, 2007 | |
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Monday Location: 20:30 yest., reintroducing myself on Broadway Mood: thoughtful Music: mother feels so shocked Father’s world is rocked  Last Friday, Cain and I went to Gshok's housewarming. I was feeling a bit down and didn't want to go but I'm glad I did. It was nice to not think about my worries. The Laura was supposed to come but she got into a car accident on the way there (she's ok). We played a rousing game of Taboo; we were tied when Gshok and I did a sudden-death round and my team won. My prize was what you see above. Saturday, Paul and I made the Lower East Side drinking circuit. Crashed a birthday party, ate some cake (we didn't wanna but the birthday girl insisted), and hit about five joints before calling it a night. At 2AM, I bumped into this girl on the street and offered to keep her company on the long walk home, She smiled and said, OK so we walked and chatted for a bit. After we got where we needed to be, she said, Thanks for keeping me safe. How did you know I'd keep you safe? I asked. I could tell, she said and then she gave me a hug goodbye. Another good deed. Sunday, I woke up just in time for a date with a pretty green-eyed school teacher I had been orbiting, but more on that later. Went to church and tried to make sense of everything. It's Monday. I don't like Mondays. Tags:
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Friday, October 19, 2007 | |
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Exactly two years in spite of the misery Location: 12PM yest., having an enormous salad on my couch Mood: slightly hopeful Music: Wanna hide from the vicious world outside But don't  My mom bought me sushi today. Pity sushi from my mother. This is what it's come to. One Dragon Roll, one Shrimp Tempura Roll, one Spicy Tuna Roll. Pity Sushi. The next best thing to Third Date, It's Late, Do You Wanna Crash At My Pad, Sushi. ---------- Forgot to mention that when I arrived in Munich, the customs officer took my passport and asked me if I had been in Germany before. I nodded so he flipped through it. Then he looked up at me and asked, Is today a special day for you? No, I said, not particularly. Why? Because you came here exactly two years ago. I thought maybe you had an anniversary here. I didn't believe him so he showed me. It was true: 20051005<>20071005. What a coincidence. Was that really two years ago that I went to Berlin with No 6? We've been split up for that long? I couldn't believe it. I still can't. Ah, what does it matter? Yeah Christine, life is sweet (in spite of the misery). Tags:
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Thursday, October 18, 2007 | |
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Pamela Luss Location: 9PM yest., @ 38th & Mad Mood: hopeful Music: Maybe it was the music, or the glamorous sky of blue  And tonight I did. She was great. Bebe Neuwirth came to hear her sing for the first set, which I missed, of course, but it's just as well. On the way there, Cain and I managed to catch an old man as he slipped on some gravel so I felt I did my good deed of the day. That's why NYC's so cool - you just never know how your night's gonna end up. I've lived here my whole life and I'm still surprised by it all. Tags:
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007 | |
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One good thing Location: 9PM, fencing in the UWS Mood: terrible Music: One good day of the week and I'll be up again  Last night, I said, I know I've been given so much already but can I just get one good thing tomorrow? Just to help me through this rough patch? I got several.
Me: ...so that's what happened. Him: Wow, I'm sorry. Me: Yeah, I don't see how it could be worse. Him: (thinking) My father just died. He's all the family I had. I'm a 29-year old orphan now. Me: (pause) Well, that beats me. (laughing) I got your drink. Thank goodness for the good souls, yeah? ---------- This will be my last post on my situation until I resolve it. I'll be back with the irrelevant tomorrow. Tags:
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007 | |
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Favor Location: 3PM, telling an old woman in my office not to cry Mood: infuriated Music: one good thing about music when it hits you feel no pain Not of me, SFW and ~18 sec Again, I can't tell you why yet but my faith in man is being severely tested right now. I spent Sunday in church a little longer than usual. Sigh Can you do me a favor and tell me some happy? Or stupid. Clearly, I'll take stupid. Tags:
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Monday, October 15, 2007 | |
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Queuing Location: 8PM, yest, the LIE going east Mood: worried Music: I would stand in line for this  This is gonna be another tough week. It's going to be like this for at least 45 days. I'll let you know what's going on when things settle. ---------- ---------- The only problem with living where I live is all the endless queues. It's maddening. Every Sunday I pick up a loaf of bread. I'm often temped to throw down four bucks and bolt. But I never do. I wait. If it's not for a chick, it's for a loaf of whole grain, low-carb, wheat bread. No, just this. No bag, thanks. Credit. I know. No, I've got a pen. Here. Thanks, you too. ---------- I love the Bourne Identity films, which are much better than the novels - those are a hard read. Spoiler - highlight below to read. There is one aspect of the novels that I prefer to the films and that is that Marie isn't killed. In fact, they're happy and have two kids. I still don't get why they killed Marie. She was my favorite character after Jason. Ah, I'm such a sucker. I wait for things that'll never happen. Tags:
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Friday, October 12, 2007 | |
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Globetrotting Pt. II Location: 8PM, driving in circles in LIC Mood: tired Music: see the words in italics below  Another long and weird day. Someone from my past is knocking on my door. He's everything I hate about myself but he and I have a history so here we are again. Sorry so cryptic, I'm making some changes - dunno if for better or worse. I'll let you know soon. I always do. But back to the trip: 20071004 Skipped all the meetings and went to the New York Hotel in Rotterdam. There I wrote postcards and had a $6 glass of water and listened to someone saying, goodbye my almost lover as I wrote my friends and family. I picked up the pretty postcard above and thought it was a bit sad I had no one to send it to. Oh well, there’s always tomorrow. I’ll be in Dover tomorrow.  20071005 Arrived in Dover, England this morning where we left the ship. The guy that screwed up with the six hour trip to Bruges also screwed us for our Dover trip. We didn't have to get up until 9AM but we woke at 4AM on his suggestion. Man! At least I got to see the white cliffs at dawn. Went over London Stansted for an EasyJet flight to Munich. Lemme just say that any airline with the word "Easy" in it is bound not to be. We ended up queuing for almost an hour. Arrived in Munich that night where the Hotel Apollo said they lost our room but put us in Hotel Mirabell instead. Hmmmm... Started drinking at 7PM at Oktoberfest where I met this bunch of people. Fun. I may have kissed a girl from Chicago and/or Australia - I don't remember. Its so hard to see clearly.  20071006 Woke up at 8AM to start drinking. Yes, 8AM. That's how they do it there. They don't mess around. Here's the town walking to get hammered at 7:45AM. We met up with some US soldiers and then a whole bunch of different people. Called it a day at 3PM. It was when I shot this video. When to the hotel, passed out. We went to the Augustiner Großgaststätten to eat dinner.  20071007 Him: Wanna drink more or let our livers take a rest? Me: Rest. Please. We rented a BMW 1 (yes, they exist) and drove down to Neuschwanstein Castle and some other castles. There're all over the damn place. And man, those mountain roads are TWISTY! We drove through a %!#$% mountain for several minutes. Driving them in the dark was both terrifying and fun. Sorta like living in NYC. We then decided to drive two hours to Innsbruck in Austria for dinner at the Elferhaus and had a cup of coffee at Cafe Kroell for an hour. On the way back, Mississippi, shes callin my name.  20071008 Drove to Munich in the dark with only 35Km left of gas in the gas tank. It's funny now. Wasn't then. Slept for three hours at the Mövenpick Hotel München - the room was absolutely gorgeous but totally not worth it because we were there for grand total of four hours. We shoulda slept at the airport. Oh well... I woke up thinking another aerorplane, another sunny place (I’m lucky I know) but I wanna go home. We then made our way to the Munich airport to Belgium then the US. So now I'm back. Tags:
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Thursday, October 11, 2007 | |
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Globetrotting Pt. I Location: 3PM, staring at several Glocks in Queens Mood: indescribable Music: see the words in italics below  Couldn't even begin to tell you about the day I had. I'll tell you in two weeks. Promise. For now, my trip: 20070928 Packed this morning but Jim forgot to confirm our ride. So I took the train to 34th and 7th Ave, where, like a $10 hooker, I stood on the corner to wait for a shiny silver car to pick me up. For international flights you gotta be checked in at least an hour before the plane departs. We were scheduled for 5:55. We arrived at 4:53. After some well handled pleading, we got in. We went to the clubroom where I had a scotch (no good rum available). We hopped on the plane and I listened to Good Souls as the plane leveled off.  20070929 Arriving in Charles de Gaule, we took the train to Nates where a driver picked us up and took us to the Hotel Hermitage in La Boule, France. It was a beautiful yet vapid place – the food was surprisingly mediocre – the hamburger I had there was one of the worst I’ve ever had it cost $40. I was certain it'd come with a massage at that price but I was wrong. Walking on the beach, I took the picture of a happy couple above and thought, Someday…  20070930 Cocktail parties, meet and greets, nothing of substance. Jim and I went over to the local town where we had a plate of seafood. It was also ok; about 50% snails and not our cup of tea. I had five snails, Jim had four. Not terrible, not great. Man, these French like to smoke. Meanwhile, the waitresses are smoking. Huh. I wanted to tell her, "Use me, abuse me, make me write bad checks" but then I remembered I don't speak French. So, instead we made the international symbol of check please by scribbling in the air. Walking down the beach, I felt the cool wind in my hair.  20071001 Grabbed a ride to Nates to catch a plane to the Netherlands. There we hopped on board a private jet where the stewardesses were all dressed in the sexiest damn outfits I’ve ever seen. Some killer food on the plane - better than most of the meals I have at home (though that's scant surprise). We then took a bus to our ship as I heard a blue jean baby sing.  20071002 On ship with a balcony and view. It's where I took this video. Meetings, food, sun. Drank way too much. Got hit on by a bunch of gay guys. Great. Not a single girl of my type in the group so I snuck out and chatted with the cute matre’d from one of the ship restaurants, Alexandra. I told her to ring me if she was ever in my town and she said she would. I thought that I don’t wanna be walked on just before I fell asleep.  20071003 Went to Bruges, Belgium from the Netherlands to have lunch at the Half Moon Brewery. It was interesting, the food and beer was topnotch BUT it totally wasn’t worth the three hours it took to get there and the three hours it took to get back. The ship set sail for Rotterdam (above pic in the lobby of the New York Hotel there) and I heard someone say that everyone’s taken everything they can. More tomorrow. Tags:
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Wednesday, October 10, 2007 | |
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Always in time but never in line Location: 2PM, Queens, telling her not to cry Mood: indescribable Music: bought a ticket to the world but now I've come back again Attention friends, readers and stalkers, this is a map of where I've been for the past few weeks. That other service Plazes by Yahoo is not nearly as good internationally so I switched over. Google's gonna take over the world. A lot's going on and I'm still sorting but click the map above for some details. Today was insanely painful for a multitude of reasons but I think things will work out. I'm sad and angry but clear-headed (probably for the first time in months). I'll tell you about it after things settle. Tags:
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